Unreciprocated

Friendship is the first as well as the last step of love. Generally, a person will never befriend with anyone if he hates the other person. It is friends who can understand us wholly than any one else. Being close in the school days and becoming more than friends can be just an insight infatuation and a teenage admiration. The urge towards liking someone on the later part of our life is what we called a matured love.

The little confidence placed  in it often drives away everything and shatters the ever unending drama of love, relationship and life. It is at that point of ones life where people start seeking intelligent suggestions from the people close to them. The cherishing days in the school provide us with the blurred idea and barely give us time to analyse our doings.

The story of how my friend started liking our own class mate is not at all an uncommon scene around us. I knew he can be the best of all to her. Being the closest  friend of mine, he shared everything to me and even seeks my suggestions all the time.  As a friend to both, happiness is bound to usher on me, if I see them together. As always, my jovial and closest friend started to admire our own classmate.

Though, it happened after many years of going away from school, the news didn't flummox me even a bit also. He was unable to take up the decisions that he actually wanted to go along with. The feeling of hesistance hindered the further progress. At the moment, I responsively suggested him to move ahead because I thought the girl would suit best for the gentleman like him.

On many instances, our incessant chit-chat was all about him and the girl whom he is in love with. A very unsure friend was really in love and dimmed by it. I became the resource person for him and often exchanged thougths and ideas mattering to relationship. I did chat with her. It was a casual talk between the two old friends nearly after 6 years of departure from school.


At one point, I even enquired about her life, relationship and her choice. Going through her reply, I thought she was still the old charming friend whom I know to some extent. She was determined not to date until she graduated and seemed strict with her decison. Even today, I will never tell anything that will sound like a discrepant affirmation to what I wrote before this. I couldn't step myself backward from asking her onward progress with our friend. The good thing in it was, I didn't sense any hint of disapporval from her side too and that probably might have made the man feel optimistic with his acts and the reason why he gave a go ahead to his mission.


The matter would have ended before anything narrative featured in between the two if she was straight and right to the point from the beginning. The true feeling without ambiguity is what we die to hear from people. If it is the truth spoken from the heart, people at other end are always wise and gentle enough to understand and comprehend it. Confirming to actuality leaves no scar even if the truth is bitter. The main cause of the emotional angush can be infinite, but the worst of all that leaves a scar on heart is when someone who you trusted the most makes you feel lonley  with intense emotional anguish.


This is the way of life. I am sure, the both must be going through series of tormenting feelings for posing themselves in to such a position and giving a strain to their strong friendship. What made me feel dizzy was when I came to know that she is dating with someone. Well, the decision is strictly with her and no one can call into question or throw any opinion as she has the sole right for what she opts to do for. For now, I feel  glad to hear it, but lament for the other guy whose dream shattered on the mercy of his guiltless and innoncent heart.


I just couldn't stop myself  from writing this to show the height of  moral degeneration to my fellow mates who can be the victim of ones own emotional trauma. Rules aren't meant to followed regimentally, but on our will. It is absolutely normal to be decisive in our life and work for the personal welfare. It wasn't at all a surprise to let my ear hear it, but it did flew through my spine giving a vibe which I'm unsuccessful of describing at this point.

 That was not at all a flaw or a mistake because it was her own decision which I respect from my heart and she too shouldn't feel bad for her smart decision which is marked by the impact of wise decision. Therefore it wasn't anything like surprisal to see her happy with someone, but definitely the true picture of world around me which is simply unpredictable which  I will regard it as untrustworthy.

Real Me For My Real Buddies

Am I a changed person now, still remains as a big questionable averment.  I talk a lot, sometimes I speak our rapidly and incessantly over an ineffective topic. I make people around to laugh out loud with my juice-less humor.  For decades, I kept myself mum for I couldn't assemble my fortitude and determination to speak my heart out. I had never danced or sang in-front of anyone before I joined college.

This is something which makes me laugh alone in my room like a person afflicted with psychosis. I bemoan at heart to say that I never interacted with my female class mates until 10th standard. The inborn reflexes within me seemed to have been cocooned itself for so many reasons. It was like my complex state was so vague that I couldn't even trace out what was right for my betterment. 

For now, I could feel the difference and will humbly say that I rejoice over it. I ain't trying to show that I am matured enough to deal with the world around me for maturity doesn't mean I've to show off my hairy face. I recently realized that it was no good for me to be a timid guy solely for the reason that people around take it in other way round.

At most, they can just judge us by the way we mingle and interact with the acquaintances around. God didn't bestow me with the serenity to interact with all kinds of people around me. So, nothing will amaze or anguish me, not even the negative remarks or the flattering words. For now, I proudly pronounce myself as the best and the closest friend to many of my former classmates who couldn't dare to talk when we were together in school. 

Now, they are ready to spank me for being too serious. I condemn for my shitty act as it was me and my outward aspect that compelled them to take it otherwise. It can either be their stupid and haphazard first impression on me. Books aren't to be judged by its cover so are the men. The part in them, which impelled them to consider me as a serious guy is jubilating apparently. For now, they speak out their heart to me and throw their tantrums whenever I deserve it.

Feels good to see them overjoyed for knowing me in real and effacing the old stories of our schooling days. Impermanence is inevitable, it is totally inappropriate to pronounce myself as a changed person for mirror would definitely hint the seat of the faulty of the assertion stated above. I will just say that people around is seeing the inherent ability of a timid and shy primitive guy. 

World around me

The present world is too complicated and the people around too. World is deteriorating right infront of us. People opt for easy living in every possible ways. They need the warmth from the people around them, but the tendency to be kind and forgiving is too less from them. People give less and expect more from others. No reason to judge people, time propels the alteration, which is totally unobjectionable.

The prevalence of emotional anguish has clouded the happiness in the faces of people. People are too ambitious and immoderately desirous for their own welfare. This is the current status which we experience daily. Friends are active in the social networking sites, yet shows no zest to write a single word to their beloved ones. The consciousness of own dignity is given the more importance and stays silent just because other person is mum.

People drink not for enjoyment, but out of frustration which leaves them in an awkward and racking situation. People are seemingly happy, but pressure is way beyond their bearing capacity. Drastic change in the mindsets of people leading to misunderstandings , choas and instability in the society. The guilt conscience  drives away the trust and faith in oneself. The trait of not trusting others is the common trend.

Nothing is forecasted and those envisioned are just an illusion. Anybody can do the work, but waits for somebody to do it and nobody does it. Technologies has ease man's job and made man unengergetic.  People struggle for supremacy over laziness. People are more focused on ones very reason for being here and give no time for others, but still expects excessively. Funny but interesting to be in the era where I get to be among the ones described above. 

Unvarying and Ceaseless Schedules

A week long assignment test is finally over, but I've got a little time to flood with relief with many workloads queued up. Writing records for the practicals performed in the laboratory is another mind numbing and onerous task that keeps me busy whole semester. Infact, assignment test is the first section of tedious activities included in the academic calender. Internal tests, assignments, practical exams in 6 modules are all eagerly waiting to brace me. Leisure time and holidays aren't mirthful as it used to be in schools. This just ruins my perfect routine and makes me lethargic.

If it's off day, I find myself in the room with my over sized head resting on the flattened pillow because vacation without acquaintances is not as diverting as having our best buddies. With no alternatives, this becomes the unvarying and a wearisome routine. Presumptively, this may not be the worst thing I am undergoing. All sorts of health related problems are another tormenting thing that always tries to jeopardize my tranquility. Feels uncomfortable to see friends going skinny in the middle of the semester and getting injured due to infections on skin.

Harsh, more appropriately, the hot and humid climatic condition is suitable way to describe the weather which is the major problem for those people who descended from cold places. While I thoroughly dislike this place, nevertheless I accord to stay here understanding the reason of my presence which is for a good cause. On certain occasions, I feel going college a better option because I get the chance to mingle with my class mates and hardly feels the ticking of clock. The worst feeling of being in room all day long just makes me alike to a mentally deranged person and going college precedes all random thoughts.


No matter what, I have to get myself shielded from all worthless fantasies and stupid thoughts. The new semester has just begun and works are all lined up to keep me busy for the next four months. Can't complacently stay and while away the time  because the choices and options in life are the two things which we should earn without any discrepancies hindering it. The unending student life of mine is tiresome yet truly like a bliss of the promised land. Unceasing academic activities and  repetitive life in the room are  the two things in which I must fit in. People  must strive to please themselves so must I with great endurance for any favourable outcome.

Glory for UDHSS

I remember reading a post in kuenselonline forum against Ugyen Dorji Higher Seconday a year ago(unsure of exact date). It must be the anonymous writing of someone who was mindful of his responsibilities and concerns over the future of his children who was enrolled there. His posting described the poor academic performance of the school in the board exams. He might have raised this issue bearing some concerns in his mind and for a grounded valid reason.  Those who strive for the betterment of the students and school must have felt the contemptuous blow by going through it. 

The writer generalized his concerns over the future of his children deliberating the poor academic performance of the school. As a parent, they will always love to see their children doing great in their life. Infact, it is the only cherished desire and hope of all the parents who altruistically sweat for their children's future. Parents and teachers are alike in everything. Be it in terms of responsibilities, care and in grooming the  students, teachers selflessly work hard in shaping the future of students. For many reasons, they must be regarded highly. Their contribution to the society is limitless and way beyond the horizon.

What delighted me lately was the the headline in the kuensel newspaper. The moment for whole UDHSS family to be ecstatic with joy over the success and a brilliant performance by one of our school mates. I congratulate our friend for soaring up our school's fame and for your great efforts which surpassed the excellence. Lets not forget the efforts of our teachers for this great success story and would love to hear lots of same stories in years to come. It is indeed a moral boosting and furnishing information to the present UDHSS family and urge my comrades to keep up with the trend hereafter. 

This dispelled the myth of hopelessness from the minds of many people and I am very much sure that the age old myth will never perpetuate in the time yet to come. Indeed, I managed to read two different articles about UDHSS, which if am to juxtapose; contradicts from one another. Let the ones who had the fallacious hope be rejoiced by this great news. Everything happens for a cause and I know that person must have written it for a good cause. I join hands with all the alumni of UDHSS and congratulate the topper. 

Wel-come Twenty-Thirteen

Exactly at this time of year, people keep themselves busy with the hope of celebrating another new year for years to come. I hear my friends talking about the resolutions and the past stories, the story of how they couldn't keep up with what they were supposed to do. I often wonder if people are really serious with their resolutions because I see them being stamped down by their impractical resolutions.  

It is a typical and  an average  thought and something what I have seen and the reason why I always give a second thought before I speak out my resolution. So for 2013, I have got no airy resolutions, but as always, wish to savor each and every laugh, cry, joy and emotional distress with an understanding that it is the part of so called beautiful life.

I don't have emphatic word to describe new year's eve. I confined myself in the room and stayed surfing net wishing all my facebook friends who were online. Friends left for the nearby Inn, which once was my favorite destination. I still have the vivid idea of how I exhibited my lame dance moves infront of fellow Indian friends last year.

I was keenly excited to be alone as I did it deliberately. When I compare my present status with the past, I see indefinable differences within myself. Feels no good to mingle and booze like before as I am a complete teetotaler and a happy man since quitting it.

Unlike last year, I did the countdown and accepted 2013 in a joyous manner. The feeling was euphoric which I felt emotionally. The fireworks from the nearby apartments was so thrilling to watch and pleasantly an entertaining one. Seeing people walking by my apartment, I could no longer stay in the room due to an influencing and an exciting temptation from the people outside who were all in gaiety mood.

Went for a midnight walk which was the first time upon reaching college and ofcourse a loner one. Though, 2012 was a year filled with dreadful rumours which riveted spooky feelings in the minds of people, it was a happy ending allowing people to gracefully welcome a new era.

Got no unshakeable resolutions or a precise new goals to be fulfilled, but would certainly usher myself  into the new year with lots of hopes and aspirations for a better world without any chaos to the beautiful earth and her people. I pray twenty-thirteen to be a year of merriment to all with good health and loads of happiness, Amen!!!

Simple Mistakes That I Commit Unwittingly

Some people are just born great by birth and rest become wise as they grow up. The instinct in we humans is that, we forget the most important and simple things. It is just our carelessness that makes us forget the stuffs which otherwise has to be held back within us. Each and every modules that we learn in the class are all related to our life.

Mind set of people can be an aura of amiss if we take slapdash decisions. We hardly get time to take note of minor ones. For instance, it is a very casual and appropriately an everyday  topic with every Facebook users to enquire age, hometown  and even go up to asking people's height and weight though it becomes too personal by then. 

Our brain do keep the stuffs in it which are patently worthless. I still remember learning about "Force" in my high school days which is correlated with mass. Once, my teacher randomly picked up few of my friends and questioned "What is your weight?". Well, everyone thought it as a silly question and answered 50kg, 45kg and so on. My answer would be no different than what my friends said, as I was already prepared to tell my weight as 57kg.

The teacher then told us that this is the mistake almost every one commits out of negligence.  He stated that the answer should be expressed in Newtons as weight is the product of mass(kg) and gravitational force, which is just same as that of Force. The answer is correct if I asked to you all "What's your mass?" nodded our teacher to which we all agreed with a low indistinct continuous sound from all over the compact class room.

Even today, I still land up committing mistakes. For now, my mistakes are something that I am unaware of and of higher level than my grasping power. One of the esteemed professors from the mechanical department came to our class as a guest lecturer for three blocked periods to impart us with the basic facts of mechanics in engineering field.

He stressed more on direction of force and behavior of load bearing forces in the construction of mega structures. The two hours lecture seemed too short that I felt like it finished in a wink of my eyes. It appeared so because he used to relate the topics to our daily routines. He even cracked a humorous, but laudatory joke on the importance direction.

The Story was about the two persons who were voyaging in yacht. All out of sudden, their yacht pounded to an iceberg and started to sink. The person who knew how to swim asked his friend the approximate distance to the ground from the accident spot as he was so desperate to get himself to a safer ground. He replied "maybe 1km" with eyes brimmed with tears.

The questioner immediately started swimming with the hope of survival as he was confident enough to reach the safer place if it is just 1km away. At that point, the poor fella shouted, "Hey! It is just one 1km if you go vertically downward and distance can be more than 100 km if you're to go in horizontal direction".

It was crucial for the him to clarify the direction and the distance to the ground to keep himself away from the curse of his friend. If he didn't mention the direction, it would be the most deadliest sinister blow and intensify the existing problem in which he is trapped in. This simple story with broad scope just displayed the importance of direction in our daily life. 

Though just a fictitious story, professor narrated to remind us of the importance of small things which we usually forget. Since it has become like a trend to us, the extrication would be difficult to instantly get out of it, but we have to strive hard to at least be responsible for our own acts.